Better now

I usually let myself process whatever has happened to me for at least eight hours before I throw it all into a box in WordPress and send it out to the world.  Sometimes, I write really reactively and end up pleased with the result, but for the most part, I prefer to let things simmer before serving.

That said, I can’t believe it has been six days since my last confession.  Now, I generally roll my eyes when people apologize for being away for so long and what-have-you because I don’t read other people’s blogs with the idea that they are obligated to keep me abreast of what is going on at regular intervals.  If I haven’t heard from someone in a while, I figure that it’s a busy time and leave it at that.

So, I am not really apologizing here.  I’d just like to explain how the last few days have not allowed much room for processing and then thoughtful writing, so I kept away.  Last week was tough, and not in a satisfying way that comes from dealing with a big obstacle.  No, it was difficult in that chipping, eroding way that wore me down slowly until I was exhausted, but for no discernible reason.  And then I was even more annoyed because I couldn’t figure out why I was so tired.

In any case, things are better now than they were a week ago for a gaggle of silly little reasons.  On Thursday, someone e-mailed me just to tell me he liked my photos from the Delaware football games.  On Friday, JG’s varsity and JV volleyball teams won their first matches of the season.  I had a particularly good night in the kitchen with a crock pot of barbecue pulled pork, a pan of peanut butter brownies, and a big batch of pumpkin dip.  On Saturday, the JV team went to their first tournament and took a win away from one of the best teams in the county.  We went to a bonfire where a friend had the brilliant idea to make a s’more out of gingersnaps, a toasted marshmallow, and pumpkin dip.  On Sunday, JG made penne vodka with chicken for dinner.

It’s not as though my life is extraordinarily different or more at ease, but those small points of light have helped to dull the wear and tear of the daily grind.